one last post before June

Junior year has ended! Can't say that I am completely happy with my grades, but it was a good game. The days after semester ended were just hectic: wrapping things up at OCS, and then trying out the new place that I will be living at this summer. And also hanging out with classmates before I headed back to Jersey. The last two weeks have been lazy. Eating and sleeping as much as possible, and re-familiarizing myself with suburbia. I realized I missed driving around in a car with the radio going. I also realized that I've forgotten what fresh air smelled like. I walked outside my parent's home a few weeks back, and was met with an unfamiliar smell... the fresh scent of recently mowed grass and the lightness of clean air. Something that NYC is very much lacking in.

Now June is approaching, I'm heading back to my city life. With my internship coming up, I'm excited and anxious. Can't wait to get started, yet a little bit nervous about it all. Went shopping for a suit today, and got frustrated because the petite sizes were gone, or the suit jacket was weird looking, or the pants were too long. Day 2 of suit shopping tomorrow.

midnight blurb

Time really does fly by so fast. Its already May 2010, and this time next year, 2011, my peers and I will be cast out into the real world, whatever that is. I get that feeling in my stomach and chest whenever I think about it, that feeling of excitement mixed with fear and anticipation. I would really like to see how things turn out a year from now, whether or not it will be what I imagine it to be. Whether or not the world will be a better place than it is now. Whether or not the problems that are plaguing us now will be somewhat solved later (I think of the healthcare reform... such a dork).

Anyways, while wondering about the future, I look back to the past as well. My mother has recently discovered the magic of scanning, and has scanned almost all of the photos in my house and uploaded them onto Facebook. My baby pictures, my sister's baby pictures, and now she's up to my brother's baby pictures. Looking through them has been a great journey back in time, and it brightens my day to see new photos posted. (Although my mom got to the photos from my mid-elementary school days...... slightly embarrassing. good thing I've convinced my mother to set those albums to the strictest privacy settings hahaha)

Looking at these photos, I realized that so much time has passed already. I remember when I was just turning 10 years old, I was like "WOW I'm so old now!" and started counting down to my teenage years. Now that a little over a decade and those teenage years has passed, I am just amazed at how fast it was. And feel a little nostalgic for those simpler times, for the times when I didn't have to worry too much about schoolwork, money, and other things. Those were truly the innocent times. I wonder if its just my generation, the generation that experienced the 9/11 attacks and the wars on terror. Things have changed, but I wonder if it has changed in a larger scale for us. My mother has posted so many photos of us with the World Trade Towers in the background..

As much as I want to fast forward these next few days, I also want to take it slowly, hang on to every moment in hopes of making time go slower. yeah yeah, theres finals and all, and I'll be losing a crazy ton of sleep, but it would be nice to once in while to slow down just so that the future doesn't come so fast.

now, back to studying